Drink in the goodness!!!

So this morning on the way to work I had to put on my moisterizer in the car because I was running late out of the shower this morning. I could feel my skin drink in the moisture and this thought popped into my head: "Drink in the goodness of God." It really stuck me. What if I was so thirsty for God that anytime I got one second in His presence I just drank in his goodness and mercy?

It's not that I haven't been drinking in His goodness. Believe me, I have! His goodness has been abounding lately. I just know that I have been rather stressed lately because there are a lot of uncertainties in my life right now. Like I'm still a temp at my job and I don't know when or if it will go permanent anytime soon. I could really use that permanence too because it comes with a pay raise and benefits. And Bryan is trying to decide what he wants to do and where he's going to work. Things have just been moving really quickly. I feel sometimes that I'm being swept downstream and I can't grab hold of anything to hold me back for a second.

But why would I want to hold back? I've been praying for this time forever! I've been asking God to move me to this new place in life; towards a family of my own. I guess I just thought it was a gradual process. But no. It seems as if God has decided I'm ready to go and we're going. His goodness is flowing through my life everywhere I turn. I just need to relax and drink it in. To be refreshed and renewed by His love and mercy for me. To be thankful that He has heard my prayers and the desires of my heart. To just enjoy life!

It's an exciting/scary/new place that I'm at. But God is with me and we're taking this journey together. And wherever He goes, I'm going. I just have to remember what he told me at the retreat...BE PATIENT!!! That's the hard part. Things are moving fast, but I still find myself trying to rush sometimes. Haha Is that even possible? To be swept downstream and still find yourself swimming with the current?

There is a song by Hillsong that has become my favorite lately. I listen to it every morning on my way to work. It's called "Take Heart" and the bridge is my favorite. It says:

All our troubles and all our tears
God our hope, He has overcome
All our failure and all our fear
God our love, He has overcome
All our heartache and all our pain
God our healer, He was overcome
All our burdens and all our shame
God our freedom, He has overcome
God our justice
God our grace
God our freedom, He has overcome
God our refuge
God our strength
God is with us, He has overcome

I love the simplicity of the message. It doesn't matter what we're going through or what we've been through or how we feel. God has overcome. He's with us and He's already overcome it all. So we can trust him. "So take heart. Let his love lead us through the night. Hold on to hope and take courage again."

Let's Play Catch-Up!

Wow. I haven't posted in this blog since September. That is ridiculous. It's a new year and a new time in my life. If you read that September post, then you already know that I have a boyfriend and a job in Odessa. Well I'm still with that boy. I'm still at that same temp job waiting for it to become permanent. And I'm still in Odessa. Haha So I guess not much has changed since September but things sure feel different.

Bryan and I celebrated our first Christmas together. It was my first Christmas to have a boyfriend ever so it was really special. He got me a really pretty cross necklace and some video games. I got hime some video games and some tools and some clothes. It was nice. Our relationship is so....magical? Is that the right word? I think so. Everything is so easy and natural with him. He strives to keep me smiling and is always so sweet. We have a lot of fun together. I love that I can just be my silly goofy self and he loves it.

But I shan't spend this entire blog bragging about my wonderful man. It's weird. I knew that I needed to blog but I opened up this post and now I can't think of anything to say. (Shocker that I can't think of anything to say, I know.) I guess I was just bored at work and thought that I could update everyone on my life. But everything seems so mundane and normal. There's no drama or disasters or aynthing. Just.....life. Simple, blissful life.

I meet Bryan's parents tonight. I'm a bit nervous but I think it will be good. They already seem so nice. It's weird to be with someone whose parents actually want to meet me and get to know me before they make a judgment about me. And they seem relatively open to invite me into the family. Yes, Bryan and I are moving toward joining our families. Slowly moving that direction, but moving nonetheless. It'll be nice to be a part of another family even though it's different from my own. (I'm struggling with recording my real, hateful thoughts about previous families. I will abstain. It's not like their behavior or my feelings about it was ever secret. No use digging it up again.) Thus, I look forward to the new adventure of meeting his parents and seeing how I fit into the mix of the Pearce world. I know it'll be quite different from my own as they are from Odessa which is a whole different world from San Angelo. But it'll be exciting. And I know that Bryan will guide me and defend me through whatever craziness comes our way. Have I mentioned that I love him? Cuz I do. A lot. A whole lot.

Well it's time to get back to work I suppose. Hopefully I'll find time to update more often. 3 months is really too long to go without posting.