It's Gonna Rain...

You know the old saying "when it rains, it pours." Well I feel like I need to start heading for a life raft. This week has been nothing but one storm after another. Long lasting storms. Not little showers that refresh your faith and move on. Like hurricane force winds affecting every aspect of life. I don't want to go into a lot of detail, just suffice it to say that it seems like every time I've turned around this week something else has tumbled down. Most stemming from one unpleasant event.

So I've been pretty frustrated and annoyed and just generally down this week. It happens when one sustains a week's worth of storms. The gloomy gray sky starts to take its toll on one's soul. I felt the urge to give up. Multiple times. If I didn't have such an amazing man - who let's face it - is practically carrying me right now, I probably would have given up and runaway. Yeah I'm a runner. I'm working on it. 

Needless to say, my Bible devotion this morning focused on perseverance through storms. Of course right? God always has to do things like that. In times like these it's both comforting and slightly irritating. Irritating in that way one gets irritated with the know-it-all in math class. Like we get it! You know everything! Quit rubbing it in my face! But of course, it's comforting at the same time to know that God knew exactly what I was going to be feeling/going through on February 8th and thus directed Tony Dungy to write the perfect devotional for this day over 2 years ago. Makes you feel kinda special when you think about it that way.

Anyway, I'm rambling. Back to the point. I was talking with God and I was like I don't understand why it has to rain right now. Like this is the worst possible time to try and drown me. I have 900 other things to think about. And does it really have to rain this much? It seems excessive. And then He said the most profound thing to me: April showers bring May flowers. Obviously I was confused because 1) it's February and 2) what does that have to do with anything that's going on right now??? Then He explained further. Basically the land is scorched right now. Life has dried us all up. His blessings cannot grow in dry, dead, scorched land. Thus we have to go through some heavy monsoons before blessings can once again abound in our lives. Very plainly and simply: flowers cannot grow in May without the land being prepared through the April showers.

I am oddly comforted by this thought. Mainly by the humanistic thought of "Awesome only a month of this!" Which I have no doubt is not true by any stretch of the imagination for God's timing and storms are often more complicated than that. But it's comforting to think that there's a reason behind these intense showers now. See I'm looking to move into a new chapter in life very soon. My heart must be ready before I can gain the wondrous blessings of that season. Honestly, it totally sucks! It double sucks! It's terrible and I hate it and I want it to be over with already. But I know it'll be worth it. I don't know how or when or why...but I know that God isn't going to take such precious care to water the land and then never allow flowers to grow.

So glory to God - I've got a garden growing soon!!! And it's gonna be magnificient!!!